I dreamed the battle itself
vividly. I did delete fighting with the
swingset-chain, moving that to an earlier chapter where a swingset had more of
a reason to be. In the original, the
mansion was my childhood home–a crackerbox house expanded by the dream to
palatial proportions, and the garage turned into a warehouse-sized
storage-space. (Grandma really did store
grain-goods in there, in an old, broken refrigerator which still had a
tight-seal against weevil-moths.) And in
that dream, being much taller and more grown than my child-self at the time, I
pulled the swing off my swingset and fought with the chain. But I knew of no one in my waking life who
looked like General Layne Aliso, though I had dreamed of her before.
The fighting in this dream came through
much more vividly than in most, though perhaps I have described it less than
some. The sense of bodily memory in
particular has lasted over decades; when I want to reconstruct what I did in
the dream, I think into my muscles and it comes back to me.
Getting confused over which way south
lies in the dream convinced me more than all the other factors combined that
Deirdre had pushed herself way past her limit–hence the prior bridge-chapters
to get to this point. All other dreams
show her surpassing everyone around her in her sense of direction. And I also had a feeling, in the dream
itself, of already having stretched my endurance to extremity before I even got
there, of shaking constantly, of struggling to think, struggling to push my
body, even as I felt exhilarated, simultaneously energized and depleted.
At some
point in the dream I developed a split awareness, some of us coming up out of
The Canyon, some of us coming down over a hill that doesn't exist in waking
life. The cliffs stood in the
background; in waking writing I added people coming down that way, too, since
the road attacks would not have sufficed in the presence of cannons. And the dream continues into the next
chapter...