wrote the conversation in the cart, the explosion, and Deirdre waking up. But I did dream that Zanne’s eventual
destination lies in a neighborhood in a bend of a river, based on my childhood
neighborhood, except that the “river” is in waking life The Canyon. More on that dream later.
as I said, I’ve also dreamed the sexual hysteria in Toulin Academy for Young
Gentlemen. As a child, like George, I
used to surprise myself, sometimes, by murmuring, “I want to go home!” when I
was already home, with a deep feeling of yearning. I think what I really wanted was to return to
the infantile notion that home could be a secure place, that the idea of
parents/family ever leaving or upheaval ever happening cannot even occur to
you—at least not until it happens.