IN THE MOUNTAINS OF FIRE
By Dolores J. Nurss
Volume VII: The Burning
recently had a vague, brief dream of staring at a seedpod twirling in a breeze,
while I lay upon the ground. I felt
utterly depleted. That’s where the
opening came from.
didn’t write down the nap-dream about the hermit burial, thinking I had forgotten
it. But later it came back to me as I
typed, first the realization that this hermit happened to be a woman, something
seemed very feminine about the setting, and then a flash of dresses that seemed
unusually tall and a growing sense that the late hermit was not assigned female
at birth. Mind you, I know a number of
unusually tall women who were born female, so that’s no indicator by
itself. It was just a sense that I felt.
suppose I don’t have quite a normal dreaming female/animus relationship with my
dreams. I have never felt precisely like
a woman, but not inclined to take on the cultural baggage of being a man in this
society, either. I just sort of am me.
the larger dream previously referenced, I dreamed of being Zanne hopping a
train with Cybil. In the actual dream I
saw the hay being loaded into a plane, and wishing on it from a distance (as in
waking life I’d learned from my Grandmother) but I transferred that to the boxcar
to make Zanne and Cybil’s landing easier.
The rest of it, the airport and the massacre, happened as dreamed. I dreamed separately something later that
included a memory of the final incident with Cybil.
refers to a childhood trauma of Deirdre’s.
He also connects Zanne’s experiences to theirs, through an inadvertent
link with Deirdre. And some of that
zings back again to the mad youth on the fire escape.
idea for the dinner of hoppers comes from watching an episode of “Survivor” in
the waking world, where the participants captured lots of grasshoppers and
tried to use them as fishing bait, with no success. Meanwhile I sat at home, thinking, “Idiots! Grasshoppers are food, themselves!”